It’s true…it has been 5 years since I was diagnosed with cancer.  How I wish I could go back to myself 5 years ago and say that everything really will be okay, that it does get worse, way worse, but then it gets so.much.better.

When I reflect on the journey since that fateful day 5 years ago, I am in awe about how much I have changed – and changed for the better.  I love my husband, my children, and my family and friends INFINITELY more and I appreciate each and every day in a way that I think is only possible because of my diagnosis.  I am by no means great at this all the time, but strive to be better all the time because I know things could have gone a very different way.

But the most important change has occurred with my ability to trust in God.  I have learned that nothing is in my control, and that’s okay, but God is and He does a way better job of providing for me than anything I can try to do on my own.  I’m not sure if I would be able to trust Him like I do now had I not been through these last 5 years.

Although I still would love to meet cancer in a dark alley and beat the crap out of it, because it wreaks havoc in so many ways, I am thankful for the path it put me on and that I am in the place I am today because of dealing with cancer.

Thank you to everyone who has journeyed with us these last five years.  The journey is not over, and I think for anyone receiving a cancer diagnosis the journey is never over, but it does get easier.  Thank you for helping me in so many ways.


From the moment you hear “you have cancer,” they say you are a survivor.  It is such an honor to still be a survivor.  That is why it was such a special moment for me to be in the Cancer Survivors’ Park this weekend taking pictures with my now much larger family than it was five years ago – and getting a little bit bigger come January.  It was a coincidence that our photographer picked this spot, but it was so neat to announce our fourth child in a place devoted to those who have fought cancer.  Do not take a day of your good health for granted – it is a great gift and a blessing to be able to share each day with people you love.

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